Financially Not Great

Hey pals,


I had a lot of my plans fall through recently, which was pretty distressing to begin but now I’ve just accepted that it has happened. It has given me some new life possibilities that I would have never even entertained. For example, going abroad. Whether that’s to work, an internship, or just some travelling time, doesn’t really matter. I had to do everything with someone.

I’ve always thought myself independent (except not entirely when within romantic relationships) but having to start over from my Mother’s spare bedroom has given me some thought and clarity. A new perspective, one I really didn’t think I’d ever have.

I love living in the UK. I haven’t explored enough of it for one, but I like how it works (ish), I like what I’ve got here (sort of), and I’m pretty bloody useless at learning and remembering languages (I’ve tried, and I would like to try again). I think mainly, I don’t have to pay for my health care or prescriptions, which is pretty sweet.

I’m often flooded with the realisation of how big the world is, and how I haven’t seen hardly any of it. I want to change that. I’ve been thinking of the different options that might exist. I see groups of school kids from other countries over here during summer, meeting new people but in a safe environment. Considering I’m an anxious mess when it comes to travelling (and many other things that aren’t relevant right now) I wanted to see if I could find a way to travel somewhere with or meeting a group out there with secure accomodation. I clearly can’t trust anyone to do anything with me, OR they don’t have the money, so I do want to do this by myself.

I actually had a brief moment where I thought, ‘wow, who’d have thought I’d be happy to be single?’ because, sure, I was comfortable being alone, but for this reason I was actually happy about it. I would never (and I mean never) gone abroad by myself whilst with someone, I wouldn’t have put that distance between us, that strain. And it’s very freeing to realise that.

I originally wanted to go away somewhere or like everyone does inter-railing, but with a group. Or then I thought, I’ll just go to one place and travel out on their transport to other areas nearby. Then I saw an ad on instagram.

How about

~ an internship ~

So nothing is decided right now, I’m still doing my research. Unfortunately, any of these options would cost a lot (particularly the internship, this actually blew my mind). So, I’ll apologise now, but I’m going to put below ways you can help me with funds, there’s a selection so please don’t click off just yet! And anyone who has done, or is planning to, do something similar, please let me know your experiences in the comments! I’d love to hear more!

~ Artie



Here is a selection of ways you can help me raise the funds for something like this:

  • I have a Patreon with behind the scenes type content, stuff that no one outside of Patreon would have access to seeing in a selection of levels.
  • I am a brand affiliate of, they are a vegan, cruelty-free, and fair wage company in the U.S for pet products. With my affiliate code you can get 20% off, and not just once you can use it on every order you make on the website. So use our code: LAYLABARKSALOT20
  • You can make any size donation to my link
  • I have a depop where I sell a selection of items (preferably only to U.K residents as postage is awful) find me with @amiexdelisle
  • I do tarot card readings online via email for £1 (or whatever is equal for your currency) just hit me up on any of my social media for more information.
  • and finally if there isn’t anything you can do money-wise, then sharing would do a big help. There’s one of these posts on basically every platform I use.

Handwriting Sample & Dyslexia

Hey pals,

Browsing through the internet, staring longingly at beautiful stationary and even more beautiful handwriting, I came across someone’s handwriting sample. So, I don’t know, I wanted to do it and discuss my handwriting a little with you guys.


Can I just say how impressed with myself I am for this photo? It looks like a scan!

Anyway, here’s my writing sample. I want to talk about the big ugly scribble first. Why didn’t I just do it again? Because I wanted to make this realistic.

I’m dyslexic.

What has that got to do with handwriting? Well, everything actually. My brain doesn’t work as seamlessly as others when it comes to anything written. That includes numbers, letters, English, other languages, all kinds of words or written communication.

I had a re-diagnosis test for literacy the year I started uni (actually it might have been technically the one before? Either way, 2014/2015) I learned that my reading speed is ‘average’ and ‘university’ reading speed was two speeds higher than mine! And I found out that my comprehension and short term memory wasn’t super great either, it was better with things I actually liked and found interesting (shocker!) and since this test I’ve found it deteriorates with stress, sleep deprivation, boredom… I’ve never been a good sight reader either (though actually I found I was quite good compared to my university classmates?? This may be where my drama training helped me develop skills I lacked).

My brain skips words, reads pages and pages without taking any of it in, ‘learns’ without retaining (hi, what’s a verb?? says the Creative Writing degree graduate…), it swaps round letters and misreads 90% of fonts (BECAUSE THEY DON’T MAKE THE LETTERS LOOK DIFFERENT ENOUGH!), assumes words based on the beginning and ending letter… learning how to spell sucks (you don’t need to know how many spelling mistakes I made whilst writing this post alone), and it generally works faster or slower when it’s most inconvenient. Oh, and don’t get me started on trying to figure out how I learn best, coz it changes every time I think I’ve got it.

Now I’m getting to the point! If I try really hard (which I did) I can make my handwriting look somewhat passable and legible. But writing notes… my writing is kinda ugly (see the sentence I wrote out above? That’s still far nicer than my usual writing). So the big ugly scribbles are where my brain went too fast for my hand. I also mix lowercase letters with capitals all over the place, I’ve heard this is actually really common amongst people with dyslexia. I don’t have the capacity to write in cursive, I’ve tried many times and it looks God awful even though it was part of teaching when I was in primary school.

I struggle using a keyboard (note: I still can’t touch-type due to my dyslexia, I just can’t remember where the letters are) and though I love writing in public or having study dates, everyone knows when I’ve made a dumb typo. There’s lots of head-shaking, eye rolls, and most often face-pulling.

This post started as one thing in my head and became something else after I wrote up my sample.

My handwriting is ugly, but not in the typical and somewhat cool way where it looks like chicken scratch and a doctor or university lecturer could have done it. That kind of ugly handwriting is linked with intelligence… which is the opposite of how I felt growing up with dyslexia. I still feel pretty stupid to this day sometimes because of my dyslexia. Everything has been more work.

If anyone reading this relates to what I’ve said, let me know your experiences and if you’d like to hear more about my battle against dyslexia. Or if you can see some of the above signs in your children, I suggest taking them to be tested and really push for the extra help (not everywhere is good at providing support when necessary).

I hope you enjoyed reading this spontaneous piece.

~ Artie


Hey pals,

To kick start my end of year motivation, I’ve decided I am going to start the #100daysofproductivity as of 01/09/18. I’ll be posting daily on instagram and may possibly vlog parts of the experience.

Why I’m doing this: I wanted to give myself some motivation to complete tasks and also create content. I’ve been staring dreamily at studyblrs and wanted to try my hand at making posts like theirs. I also want to create a new habit of getting at least one thing done every day to build a new habit for the New Year.

How it’s going to work for me: I have a long list of things I need to do now that I’ve moved back in with my family after uni, and I really want to get back on the horse for content creating. I aim to post one YouTube video a week, spend time tidying/organising/making my space feel and look nice, hopefully get back to writing more, and doing some crafts occasionally.

I’m in a place in my life right now that I’m not really sure what I plan on doing. My original plans fell through, but now that leaves me open to do whatever I want really. So I want to take this time to look into what to do next.


            I will post daily on my instastory and I will try to post on my account every few days with the nicer photos! (I will have a highlights for this tag, so you can see what I’ve been up to)

Any tips would be appreciated within this, I’m a messily organised person. But I’m excited! Let’s see how this all goes…


~ Artie

A Welcoming Introduction

Hey Pals,

I haven’t had a blog like this since I was 15-years-old, so I thought I would start with an introductory post!

I’m Artie. I’m 23, queer and non-binary. I’m a Libra, you’ll come to find how much I love talking about star signs. I’ve just graduated from a Creative Writing BA (hons) degree with a 2:1. I call myself a writer. I perform my writing where I can. I dabble in all the creative pools, I can’t just do one things forever, I need to be challenged and I need variation in my life.

I have a disability. I suffer with chronic pain. I’ve been battling mental health problems my entire life, but consciously for 10 years. I have Depression, Anxiety and BPD. I struggle to manage my health and am constantly trying things to help me feel better, even if only momentarily.

I’m a Vegetarian (have been for almost 10 years now) and lactose intolerant which is great. I may post on here about Vegan/Vegetarian and cruelty-free products I come across.

I create content for and about marginalised groups. I’ve never felt much representation in media, and if I have it wasn’t positive. My aim is to be one of the people creating that content to help at least one person feel represented.

I fight my misfortune with humour. I like to think I’m quite funny. (I am)

I am currently unemployed and living with my family (again), I am looking at part time work but don’t think I could manage much due to my health. I want to try and make my creative endeavours my means of earning. I have a Patreon and a PayPal donation link for anyone who wishes to help support me.


I have a long list of projects I’m working on, this is adding to it but hopefully also helping me get back into writing. I’ve been in a bit of a hump about writing recently.


I feel like that’s as detailed I can get without going off on a tangent, that’s reserved for another day.


I hope you all enjoy what is to come on this blog, and please go check out my other social media! I post pretty regularly.


~ Artie