I wanted to talk through some of the gross diet culture of January, how I avoid it, and what I spend January doing instead! Content Warning, this will talk about things like calorie counting, dieting, EDs, and more along those lines.
I spend a lot of my year using a food tracking app and sticking to a rough calorie goal. I've found now that I'm 10 years (ish) into my eating disorder recovery, I don't find calories triggering anymore, and I have a healthier relationship to food and my relationship with it. I've had a lot go on in my life around food that I didn't understand, I talk through that in more detail in my video on my channel The ED Diaries, and a little in my ADHD Journey blog post if you want to know more about that so I don't repeat myself too much. I've had to deal with a lot of triggers like weight gain from life saving medication and restricting certain ingredients/foods for my Crohn's disease as well as re-introducing seafood back into my diet after 10 years vegetarian.
I'm not sure how obvious it is, but I love music a lot and have been a subscriber to Spotify for a few years. I mainly use it for music but also the occasional podcast, and I've been looking into what audiobooks are available on Spotify. Unfortunately, this post is aimed at people who are subscribed, because if you have to shuffle the album, you can't listen in order and I'm not sure how it works with podcasts. They don't have a specific audiobook format so they vary between traditional music album formats or podcasts. But these are the ones I'm thinking about listening to.
If you follow me elsewhere on the internet, you may have seen that I was diagnosed with ADHD on October 6th 2021. It has been a long journey, I gave a brief summary in my first video discussing my ADHD Graveyard of how I got here but I wanted to give further details of the full journey I have been on.
My initial self reflection began with questioning if I am Autistic. It seems like a lot of people are usually the reverse, they were diagnosed ADHD and then started to wonder if they we also Autistic. I've had numerous friends in my life diagnosed Autistic and they were some of the first people I ever really went "damn, you get me," about anyone. And the one person I knew had ADHD, we had a rocky friendship that ended up in a pretty solid understanding of each other. Reflecting on these friendships I had (but also all my other interactions I remember) made me see more and more traits and gave me more clarity on why some circumstances even happened. It was because people could see my neurodivergent traits and didn't like them.
Today is World Mental Health Day and I wanted to make this my last book recommendation collab of 2021. With a mixture of Fiction, Nonfiction, Poetry, there is something for almost everyone. We tried to gather a selection of books with a variety of representation. Anxiety, Depression and Eating Disorders saturate publishing as 'acceptable' and 'glamorous' mental illnesses to have. Whilst we know that isn't true, and all three are very difficult to deal with, I wanted to give my love to other conditions but found it a bit of a struggle to really find representation in books I hadn't read. My list includes: Depression, Anxiety, Trauma, Grief/Loss, Addiction/Alcohol Dependence, Eating Disorders, Gender related Dysphoria and mental health struggles. I would love to find more books around OCD, BPD, Schizophrenia, Bipolar, and other heavily demonised conditions, so if you know of any please leave the recommendation in the comments!