I wanted to talk through some of the gross diet culture of January, how I avoid it, and what I spend January doing instead! Content Warning, this will talk about things like calorie counting, dieting, EDs, and more along those lines.
I spend a lot of my year using a food tracking app and sticking to a rough calorie goal. I've found now that I'm 10 years (ish) into my eating disorder recovery, I don't find calories triggering anymore, and I have a healthier relationship to food and my relationship with it. I've had a lot go on in my life around food that I didn't understand, I talk through that in more detail in my video on my channel The ED Diaries, and a little in my ADHD Journey blog post if you want to know more about that so I don't repeat myself too much. I've had to deal with a lot of triggers like weight gain from life saving medication and restricting certain ingredients/foods for my Crohn's disease as well as re-introducing seafood back into my diet after 10 years vegetarian.
If you follow me elsewhere on the internet, you may have seen that I was diagnosed with ADHD on October 6th 2021. It has been a long journey, I gave a brief summary in my first video discussing my ADHD Graveyard of how I got here but I wanted to give further details of the full journey I have been on.
My initial self reflection began with questioning if I am Autistic. It seems like a lot of people are usually the reverse, they were diagnosed ADHD and then started to wonder if they we also Autistic. I've had numerous friends in my life diagnosed Autistic and they were some of the first people I ever really went "damn, you get me," about anyone. And the one person I knew had ADHD, we had a rocky friendship that ended up in a pretty solid understanding of each other. Reflecting on these friendships I had (but also all my other interactions I remember) made me see more and more traits and gave me more clarity on why some circumstances even happened. It was because people could see my neurodivergent traits and didn't like them.
My content uploads have been a bit all over the place recently and I wanted to give you an update of why that is and what has been going on.
I took some time off blogging after my scheduled posts ran out because life is a little crazy sometimes and I had nothing I really wanted to write about. I've been focusing on my inner needs and trying to control stress and anxiety whilst making some big life adjustments so bare with me.